I'll stick with faith because hoping is hopeless

I can't do drugs, I can't drink, I can't do what you're doing. I can't get satisfied off that. I'm not looking for a temporary void-filler. I'm not looking for a simple solution to a complex desire. I like navigating my own ship. I don't live to just consume, absorb & react to other people's stuff. I need to create/ produce, to vibe. I want to make people feel something, not just keep feelings to myself. I don't want to settle. I think the idea of being stationary and secure is whack. I'll lose my mind if I can't continue to lose myself. I want to always do better because that's who I am.