If I wanted to talk to a wall I would talk to a wall

You can leave yours up but know there is a limit to how much someone is willing to "fight" for a spot in your life. But you know what, you and I alike shouldn't have to do either of those things. If someone wanted you in their life, they would make an effort to put you there. Am I right or am I right? Fear, comfort & avoiding problems is what leads to hurting people you don't intend to hurt. And that's a sign of selfishness for the sake of protecting your own skin in a way where you think you know yourself so well and you probably do, but you fail to recognize kindness and loyalty when it's right in front of you because you let "bad" experiences overshadow your present. You reach out to others knowing that you're terrified of losing them once the connection is real enough. And when good things come too quick, you 2nd guess your intuition because you're brainwashed that love, trust and loyalty comes with time, and it does, partially. But you leave out the whole quality part. Great things can happen over night, and kindness can happen within a second. If you think that's fake. You need to reevaluate your life, and your priorities. You can't live on blaming others for how you feel or the problems you encounter. This is what an unstructured rant looks like.