Driven by Death.

I am powerful & I'm set out to make a difference that I'm willing to put my life on the line for. I'm unconventional & full of passion. Guided by unmatched wisdom & visions that scream at me everyday. I'm a result of the corruption not everyone can see, but everyone has grown comfortable with, so comfortable they can't distinguish the difference between intuition & fear. There are people like me & then there are those who lost their imagination long before they became "adults". 

Dreamer, extremist. I believe that my existence has no significance outside of this planet. My motivation comes from the known fact that we all share the same fate; death. I will not punk out of the things I want to do. No time to bow down to fear or be bothered with negativity. Let's see how much I can accomplish before death takes me out of commission.

Breaking the cycle.

Fears are obstacles that inspire me to take risks beyond my zone of comfort. I love the rush because it gives me the seeds I need to grow new ideas. I conquer unknown territory with all the faith I put into my decisions. But my actions aren’t always scripted. Sometimes I like to free fall because whether the end result is positive or negative, I’ll be okay with it because its an experience; a moment in time I captured, a memory, a story that’s now mine that I can revisit & share at any given time. I want to remember my days because of how unique each one was.

Being able to follow a pattern means you’re persistent but too much of that and your days become a blur; an insignificant part in your timeline you can’t recall because it’s not important to you. If you find yourself stuck in a pattern of unhappiness, it’s important to first acknowledge that you are unhappy. Or maybe you just aren’t satisfied with what you’re doing. Breaking patterns opens up new paths

Understanding the value of self-worth & getting the most out of this thing we call life is something that shouldn’t be ignored. If you truly cared about yourself you wouldn’t live just to suffer. Luck & inspiration is out there, you just have to be willing to walk away from the familiar and take a step towards enlightenment.
Being stuck in a loop will slowly make you deteriorate, trust me. And sometimes it’s not even physical patterns but mental ones.

Perspective makes you look at a glass of water in a particular way. The more perspective you have, the more open your mind is to the “new” & the “different”. Sometimes you just need to open your eyes to everything around you in order to find those little hints of happiness you couldn’t see before. And once you can appreciate those hints… I think you just might have found what it’s like to truly be happy & not just content. The ability to appreciate is to understand the true value of something. Appreciation and love are like soul mates. Put those two together and I think happiness isn’t too far away.

Stress

I have been around a lot of negative energy lately. I feel like my soul gem is starting to get a little cloudy (Madoka Magica reference). It’s funny because I looked to these people to be the most positive and strong-willed ones I know, but I guess everyone cracks at one point right? One should not let a foolish thought, assumption or event dictate the direction of their life. Even if it’s just a phase, just know that although you may feel like shit, you could be indirectly affecting someone else’s life. And if you care about the people around you, you don’t want to ever take it out on them. I haven’t seen that lately which is good, because at least these people can appreciate their friends and not use them as punching bags.

If you’re stressing because of something or someone, just know that the real pain is internal. Emotions aren’t a force that is thrown into your body from the outside, it’s something you create from within. You have the power to dictate how you feel, and how to act. I’m not saying you should put on a fake smile for anyone’s sake, I’m saying learn to hone your feelings the way you want it. I am sure that you don’t want to feel like shit, you don’t want to stress out, you don’t want to break down in front of your friends. You want to be happy like how everyone else is, or at least seems. Most of us are hurting because of something from so and so ago. But It shouldn't be like that.

Find that conflict, and confront it. There is no running or forgetting, only forgiving. Don’t damage your precious body with bitter thoughts, keep it beautiful for yourself and who ever is lucky enough to love it as much as you should love yourself.

 When you learn to genuinely love yourself, it will take so much more to bring you down than a bad hair day or dumb comment some kid you don’t give a shit about made, or a dumb ass girl who calls you a friend that talks behind your back. Don’t let someone who angers you, control you.

You’re only young for so long, remember that. Time is truly the most valuable thing you have, so please use it to the best of your ability.
I know I preach the same stuff all the time, but it’s because I stand by my words 100% & that is why I’m truly happy every single day, even if I say stupid little things on twitter or whatever.

My thoughts were a bit scattered with this one. But for anyone who needed this, I hope this helped.

I never want to be the person who wakes up going to a job they hate

I don’t understand why people settle for bullshit. We can all amount to something great, but most people just can’t picture themselves being anywhere than where they already are. Why is that? Did bills and responsibilities hit them so hard that they’ve come to the conclusion that there is nothing left to gain? The best day is pay day? What kind of life is that? What happened to all those dreams you had when you were younger? How could you sit back and let someone else take your spot? I see it as you can continue to live the way you are, working and praying for a pay raise just so you can make it through life, or aim for something less comfortable but has a better pay off now and later. Because nothing beats the thrill of risks and carving one’s own destiny the way they want it. You put in 40+ hrs a week doing some low-skilled job that will most likely be replaced by robots between 10-20 years. So what exactly are you doing? Ask yourself that. Strive to live the way you want. It’s worth the struggle.